The last and the final

College is stressful, that has been my biggest problem that I have run into as a freshman, and how the heck am I suppose to deal with that stress.

I’ve learned it takes time, a lot of time to adjust. College is not swift, they throw you right in whether you are ready or not. Basically I had to go face first and get over that I couldn’t deal with stress and try to understand how to deal with it. It wasn’t easy, not one bit.

In the end that was my biggest achievement of my first semester. I took on the stress, figured out how to handle it and how to get everything done without feeling like I had no time to myself. I now have a huge calendar on my wall where everything is written. I also time myself when I am working on certain things. Such as when I am working on an art piece I can keep working and getting more details into it, but I don’t always have the time so from now on even if I have 3 hours of work to do sometimes I push that 3 hours into 2 if I am tight on time.

In the end, I have successfully kept all straight A’s. At some points I was scared and thought I was going to fail a class, which was Art history. In all my classes I had to retain a lot of information in a short time and on top of that try to read a huge Art history book every other night put me to sleep.

I tried reading during the day and I still fell asleep no matter what. So to even out me over sleeping in the day time I would stay up that extra amount I slept and I would just read. It worked out perfectly, I got to read and I got enough sleep throughout the semester.

So far so good, I haven’t made as many friends as I would hope in college but being a commuter is not easy. I have a part-time job at night and I lose a lot of weekday time to study and work on homework or meet friends.

Right now in college I don’t know what my speed is, and I have a feeling that I might end up taking longer to graduate at the rate I am going. I’m planning to study abroad and I have no idea where that may take me. I may end up wanting to live there, or even changing my career. In the end I am excited with the desicisions I have made so far in my college career and I can only hope that it gets better and better from here on out.

I hope though that I can improve my involvement with others and with the school since I really feel like I am at high school still. I want to feel like a college student.

Now that only scary part is can I keep doing what I just adjusted myself to and make it work next semester. I can only hope what I am doing now is what I need to do for college. Otherwise I will only be going through another stressful crazy semester. I will only look forward and enjoy the rest of my college career though and know that no matter what college dishes out to me that I will overcome it since I over came so much this first semester. At times I cried a lot and didn’t think I could finish another semester here. But I did it, and now I know that I can do it over and over again.