This is it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMEkaq4310M&feature=youtu.be

The last and the final

College is stressful, that has been my biggest problem that I have run into as a freshman, and how the heck am I suppose to deal with that stress.

I’ve learned it takes time, a lot of time to adjust. College is not swift, they throw you right in whether you are ready or not. Basically I had to go face first and get over that I couldn’t deal with stress and try to understand how to deal with it. It wasn’t easy, not one bit.

In the end that was my biggest achievement of my first semester. I took on the stress, figured out how to handle it and how to get everything done without feeling like I had no time to myself. I now have a huge calendar on my wall where everything is written. I also time myself when I am working on certain things. Such as when I am working on an art piece I can keep working and getting more details into it, but I don’t always have the time so from now on even if I have 3 hours of work to do sometimes I push that 3 hours into 2 if I am tight on time.

In the end, I have successfully kept all straight A’s. At some points I was scared and thought I was going to fail a class, which was Art history. In all my classes I had to retain a lot of information in a short time and on top of that try to read a huge Art history book every other night put me to sleep.

I tried reading during the day and I still fell asleep no matter what. So to even out me over sleeping in the day time I would stay up that extra amount I slept and I would just read. It worked out perfectly, I got to read and I got enough sleep throughout the semester.

So far so good, I haven’t made as many friends as I would hope in college but being a commuter is not easy. I have a part-time job at night and I lose a lot of weekday time to study and work on homework or meet friends.

Right now in college I don’t know what my speed is, and I have a feeling that I might end up taking longer to graduate at the rate I am going. I’m planning to study abroad and I have no idea where that may take me. I may end up wanting to live there, or even changing my career. In the end I am excited with the desicisions I have made so far in my college career and I can only hope that it gets better and better from here on out.

I hope though that I can improve my involvement with others and with the school since I really feel like I am at high school still. I want to feel like a college student.

Now that only scary part is can I keep doing what I just adjusted myself to and make it work next semester. I can only hope what I am doing now is what I need to do for college. Otherwise I will only be going through another stressful crazy semester. I will only look forward and enjoy the rest of my college career though and know that no matter what college dishes out to me that I will overcome it since I over came so much this first semester. At times I cried a lot and didn’t think I could finish another semester here. But I did it, and now I know that I can do it over and over again. 

All the Laughs We Had..

At first, I wont lie, I thought why would Southern put 22 people in the same two classes back to back for about 3 hours total twice a weeks; I couldn't figure why they would force students into something like that.

But now with only one week with this group of people, I want to have another class with all of them next semester as well.

The bonds everyone slowly made are now going to be ripped apart. At this point I am not sure if this was a good idea or bad one. Being a commuter this had helped me make friends on campus that I wouldn't have been able to by myself.

I'll miss this odd connection this group of people have made with each other. Through all of our frustrations with Professor Hawkins and are laughs we have become closer to one another than most will realize.

Next semester at 11 in the afternoon on a tuesday or thursday most of our class will wonder what each other is doing, what classes we now have instead and maybe question why didn't we try to be in one of their classes with them.

I know a few people I wish I could have classes with, but because of our different majors and requirements.. we might never met in the classroom again.

In the end, our little learning community has grown on me and I feel it has grown on everyone else as well. Hopefully we all we meet each other later on in the next semester or at some other random moment.


I wasn't really sure about underlying meanings behind using our community learning so I looked up some back ground information about the process. Sadly I couldnt find too much on the topic, however I found this website  that looked into problems a learning group could have and I felt that this was a huge factor for myself in the classroom. Most the time I wanted the teacher to push the class more and not 'baby' them because others were lacking. It is college, people should pick up their own slack. I don't want to be brutal towards those who couldn't keep up or don't put in the effort. But If southern does another community learning group they need to make sure that everyone is at the same level, or make sure the teacher doesnt hold back because of some students. You should never stop another students progress in learning because others cannot achieve it.

My Ideal Life

Its not ideal, I just have a goal.


After college all I want is to have a job as an art teacher. It is pretty simple. I don't care where or for how much, I just want to inspire others to get involved with art. I decided a while ago that the place where I could inspire people the most is starting in a high school and having my students branch out to others.



Of course I would like my own place and be on my own. Other than that my life would be filled with art work and that is my goal and my dream.

To most people, they would think my idea life after college is odd. Why? Because I don't want to live in an expensive house and have a job where I get paid too much to sit on my butt. CEO's are ruining our country.

I want to show our culture and the younger generations that their morals and their dreams are not what they seem. I want to inspire people to bring back art but also do something that they love and not be worried what others my think or how our country wont let you do it since it is not in science or math.

We need to bring our world back to life, we need to paint it green and show everyone the truth of what our world is coming to.

So yes, my ideal life after college is small, but my underlying goal  is much bigger than anyone could think of.

In this article the author explains exactly what I mean by how the younger generations are forgetting the real aspects of art and what it should mean.